Lets take a little tour, of me. I have a lot of blessings in my life. I have a great family, friends, two mini humans and a husband who keep me on my toes all the time. I have a LOT going on. All of that is the very reason I publish the weekly content that I do. Its things i’m currently discovering about myself, what I’m currently going through. All of these things I think about and work on daily. Here is why…
Since having kids, if you can imagine I have a lot pulling at my attention. Cooper who just turned 2 is always on the go and is in a phase of really testing boundaries. Luke who is 8 months old is getting more mobile everyday but is the most finicky eater I’ve seen. Which means I get to feed him a lot. Cooper hasn’t been in daycare since Luke was born, but I could tell he really missed the social aspect. I try to get him out and around in the mornings as much as possible. That means my morning routine has to start pretty early. Early morning is also the only time I get for myself. I talked about my morning routine last week and if that gets thrown off, i’m thrown off. I have to center myself in order to be my best for the day.
I have a set-ish time to work on my personal stuff and get the house picked up during nap time, however long that may last. That means, cleaning, writing book, writing this blog, rehearsing speeches or editing them, or working on speaking bookings. Nap time is when I get to work on all of that. Nap time has evolved that Luke usually wakes up for some and I sit on the floor with him while he plays and rolls and finish whatever I can.
The very fuzzy line between all of those things I tend to have my guilt creep in. If my phone goes off or I think of an idea or someone I need to talk to or message, I pull my phone out and do it real quick and then tell myself I’m not paying attention to my kids enough. Its a large struggle of mine. I think i’m doing a pretty good job and I have to remind myself of that a lot.
All of my personal development stuff, I can’t turn it off. Not that I really want to because its vital for myself to keep going. But its become such a passion of mine that it seems its all I can talk about. I’ve been working on those things and myself for years. I’ve come a LONG way from where a was a couple years ago, I was in a dark place. I want to help others do what I’ve done for themselves. Ask me about it, I just start talking. Every time I post anything on social media, the first thing I think is that people are rolling their eyes at me. Then I remember how important it has been for me and that people out there need to hear it. Being able to help people directly would be so great, but knowing that there are people I’m helping no matter what is okay too. Most of the time I have to take a couple deep breaths and press post and be okay with whatever I may think.
My afternoons are usually slightly hecktic. I’ve been a horrible mean planner so figuring out dinner is a daily struggle. I love to cook but my time has gone way down and so has my ability to have a lot of different options of dinners. Cooper has been waking up and has a tantrum for a decent amount of time before I can get him to eat a snack and get blood sugar up. If he actually eats dinner, we’re lucky.
My husband has been working on remodeling our house since last spring.(poor guy) It has been a huge project. Or many different projects depending on how you look at it. Either way Cooper wants to help dad, and he can’t exactly. I play a lot of cars, trains and some occasional Mickey Mouse while I feed the baby.
All of these things and I still rarely have a bad day. Not to say I don’t have my moments. I utilize all my support. I listen to the things that speak positivity into me because I have plenty of reasons to want to give up. I am however, determined to influence and inspire people. If I can do all of this and still stay positive and determined, so can they. It’s not easy by and means. I’m pretty intentional about everything.
I’ve also learned that being pissed off doesn’t serve anyone. Do I get mad, you bet. Most of the time, staying made isn’t worth my time or effort. It rarely is, and I don’t have the energy to waste on something that really leads nowhere productive. I’ve learned not to focus on negative opinions. They are that, they are opinions. Everyone has them and that belong to that person.
You could say i’m stretched thin, it is true, I am. My life also isn’t getting less hectic anytime soon. The activities and reasons its hectic may change, but it will always be heckic. (I have two boys, lets be real) So I choose to embrace it. I’m highly caffeinated which yes isn’t great for me. I do what I need to do right now. Its one of many sacrifices. Especially since I currently still have a child that doesn’t sleep through the night.
So again, my life isn’t easy, but I roll with the punches. I have a lot of high goals for my future and the future of my family. That’s pretty motivating. Figuring out how to prioritize the things that need to get done quickly versus those that can probably wait a day or two has been vital. It may sound like I try to do it all, but if that was the case, my own personal stuff would be progressing much faster. I still work on it as much as I can, but I also only have one chance to raise my kids.