How many roller coasters do you try everyday? We all know life in general is a roller coaster. But damn, how many different tracks to do get thrown on every day? One minute you feel like you might be on the straight track either gaining speed or getting ready to put on the breaks. Next second you don’t know if your going to be climbing a steep hill with the sudden drop or going on the small but mighty series that tend to make you sick.
All I know is that I’m sick of trying to manage. I’m in major need of time to let my stomach settle. I’m know I’m not alone with all the posts I see. Even the people I know who are very introverted are desparate for even a little human contact. A little connection. Isn’t it crazy how alone we all seem to feel even though most everyone is in the same situation?
I was thinking earlier today of some things and events that were going to occur mid to end of March that ended up being canceled before we all went on total social distancing and received stay at home orders. Even though those things really weren’t that long ago, it seems like its been a year. I would think it would feel that way if you are one stuck at home trying to figure out what the hell to cook for the 200th night in a row or you work on the front lines whatever that looks like for you.
All of these things breed fear. We all fear things on a normal basis but we’ve found our individual ways to cope with it. Now, our fear is just magnified and we’re being told by everyone how to manage it. Be like this, do this, feel like that, absolutely do not do this, this, or this. Turns out, we don’t like being told what to do. The odd thing that I see so much, is that we crave being told how to feel. So many people don’t like feelings in general. Maybe that is because we’re not taught how to manage them.
I’m an emotional person. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to go cry to myself just to get the overwhelm and frustration out. And let me tell you, after I do, I feel so much better. I used to get so self conscious about the fact that I cry so easy but I broadcasted openly that I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I’ve learned to manage those feelings so much better since I’ve owned the fact that I’m emotional and that sometimes I just need to cry.
Have you figured out how to handle your emotions? Or do you just shove them down and pretend they don’t exist? Sorry to say, if you are human, you have emotions and they go up and down. You get told multiple times everyday how to feel. We’re allowed to have all the feels, but how we handle ourselves and our emotions will always be our choice. Like it or not, they are there. So why not learn how to handle them since we’re going to experience them regardless.
Each different type of track is different and right now, they come out of nowhere. Learning how to lean into the curve might take a second but it is doable. We all need some grace from everyone right how, including ourselves.
On the bright side, maybe we’ll be able to handle whatever normal we will get back to much better.